Jumping on the Drug Wagon

OK. I'm back. I've been kinda scared to blog again after my last couple of blogs. They are a bit depressing. I know. It is good to get it out and this is the safe place to do it. I truly believe that. And I guess it worked. Because, after reading them myself, I decided that things were getting out of hand for me.
If you haven't noticed (ha ha) I have been sinking deeper and deeper into depression over the past year. It has gotten bad. I don't want to do anything. I don't want to go to work (which is the only place I feel half-way like normal) and then don't want to go home afterwards. The thought of going anywhere with a friend is overwhelming (It has almost sent me into tears a few times.) I feel like a slug all the time. I have no energy and no ambition. I have projects I could/should be doing, but just thinking about it is daunting. I am tired ALL of the time. My husband is carrying the load of housework and cooking because I look as bad as I feel.
I want to do things with family and friends. I want to do my projects - I always seem to have a project going in the past. But, it seems to require so much energy, not just physical energy, either. You need so-ooo much social and emotional energy, too. It isn't nice to zone out or not uphold your end of the conversation. You can't just go lay down when visiting a friend because you have suddenly become so tired you can't keep your eyes open anymore. You're supposed to be happy and have a good time.
Well, last week, it hit me. I need help. I'm not going to bounce out of this one. I have, like most people, been down, depressed, unhappy before. It has even lasted a month or two. I have always been able to 'Snap out of it!' (as Cher in Moonstruck would say.) But this is different. It has lasted over a year. It is getting worse not better. It feels like a battle, not an inconvenience. It is taking over my life. I don't like who I am right now.
So, I went to the doctor. He has suggested a drug with little side effects and gave me 6 weeks worth of samples to try. He, also, wants to do a full work up and physical, which is smart too. I hope that this will help. I don't know what to do if it doesn't. I can't go on like this, though. I am not only miserable, but I'm making others miserable.
I was so afraid he would tell me to suck it up. You don't know how relieved I was when he said yes to trying something pharmaceutical. So, Yippee! I'm now on drugs! I can't write- None - on the Prescriptions Currently Taking line of the doctor's form any longer. But, if it helps - so be it.